“Lord, cause your army of believers, just like me, who took this truth home with them and were changed and made this a part of them; cause them to rise up and prepare themselves! Prepare themselves with prayer and fasting. Prayer that knocks at and shakes the gates of heaven! Prayer that calls the Holy Ghost down! Prayer that FORCES signs and miracles to follow! Prayer that causes that rolling, thundering river of the Holy Ghost to flow over the church and causes us to see something happen! Oh Lord! Let your anointing fall!”
I was reading an excerpt from, “Rise Up Oh Army of God”, http://nancylwatrud.com/archives/330 a post I wrote back in June of 2012 when I was only a handful of months into my journey of consecration. I had started experiencing things I didn’t understand and though I was confused by much of it, I had already seen what even a short time of focused consecration was capable of.
God had started the great “Nancy makeover project” or the “force the desert to blossom as the rose” project, as I liked to call this season in my life. God had placed me back on the “Potter’s Wheel” and was changing me…majorly changing me.
If you have followed my posts for any period of time, you’ve witnessed the metamorphosis God has performed in my life. God has done this great thing! I simply cooperated! I can truly say, as well as those that know me well will attest, I’m not the same person now as I was then. It was by the grace of God that early in the year 2012, I determined to petition God for a demonstration of the Holy Ghost at my daughter’s graduation ceremony from Bible college. I’m truly not the same person now as the one that somehow started to consecrate her life back in 2012 without really even knowing that was what I was doing or what wonderful consequences there would be with my feeble efforts. Somehow, that Nancy died and was recreated by God as a new creature…a new creation. I don’t think I was even trying to change myself. I was simply desperate enough to pray and seek God in a way I had never prayed or sought Him before and desperate enough to somehow seriously fast. In those few months of desperately seeking God, I started to find myself in a spiritual realm I did not know existed nor did I know what to do with what I was experiencing . I called this place of prayer, “white-water prayer”. I spoke of it in my post, “Deep Calleth Unto Deep” http://nancylwatrud.com/archives/336 which was written in April of 2012.
God heard my cries and there was a mighty move of the Holy Ghost at my daughter’s graduation ceremony. I came home from that weekend overwhelmed with gratitude, but also with the thought of, “Why let up now?” Rev. Lee Stoneking had said, after preaching at the graduation ceremony, “May you never be the same again!” and I got a hold of that! I made up my mind I was never going to be the same again! Something was imparted to me over that weekend of services that stirred in me a determination to go forward! to seek God with my whole heart! to ride that wave of momentum and never go back and I have not gone back! That’s not saying there hasn’t been heartache and confusion; there has been much of that! It was over Christmas/New Year holidays of 2012/2013 that God spoke to me through a Word given to a family friend that I was, “Walking through the Valley of the Shadow of Death”…by that meaning I was walking in the dark, unable to see where I was going…but “certain things must transpire before these things come to pass.” I hung onto this Word from God throughout the tough process of change and consecration until I was able to make peace with passing through the Valley of the Shadow of Death. I had many melt-downs during this time of confusion and uncertainty, making much of my time on “The Potter’s Wheel” emotionally painful. I had also felt I needed to repent once again for my many years of living a sinful life, and for living almost as many years underneath where God would have had me to be in His Service.
In a subsequent post called, “Crazy Prayer, Crazy Faith, Crazy Plan”, http://nancylwatrud.com/archives/328 I spoke of pushing forward in prayer. I said:
“I had never been one to pray for longer than an hour at a stretch, but now I was discovering that hours could pass by with very little notice. I became very protective of my prayer time. My phone was shut off, the computer dark, even the cat became relegated to the garage. I absolutely wanted NO interruptions. I also got it into my head that I should be somewhat dressed for company when I prayed. No more throw on some sweats when I got home from work. I showered, washed my hair, dressed for visitors and went to my stuffed chair to pray.”
During this time, God graciously connected me with a mentor on Facebook. She wrote much to me about prayer. I’m afraid at the time a great deal of it was way over my head, but I followed her advice to the best of my ability. One of her notes said, “The first building block of a deeper friendship with God is complete honesty–about our faults and our feelings. God doesn’t expect us to be perfect, but He does insist on complete honesty.” In response to her words of exhortation, my prayer became even more intense. I wrote the following:
” I proceeded to tell God everything. I talked to Him about EVERY failing, EVERY deep secret, everything, everything, everything. I left NOTHING out”… “There were things that I did not want to talk to God about, but I MADE myself tell every detail.”… “These times of prayer and confession went on for many days. I had lovely times of prayer, singing and dancing in the Holy Ghost. My prayer became what I call, “Crazy Prayer”. I would have my time of pouring my heart out to my Savior, then it would move into petition, then intercession, then worship and singing. It was “Crazy Prayer”.
After this, my love for God was tested. I spoke of this in my post, “Crazy Love, Magnificent Love”, http://nancylwatrud.com/archives/316 I wrote:
“I managed to make my way into the house and to my chair to pray but I didn’t know where to begin or what to say. I didn’t know how to even start to pray now that my worship seemed phony and shallow. I struggled, wanting to say, “I love you” to God from the depths of my heart, from that place where deep love resides, but when I inspected my love of God, I knew it wasn’t sufficient for Him. I didn’t want to talk to God about it, but I knew I had to. I tried to speak, but could only come up with broken sentences. How do you talk to the Almighty God about the fact that you don’t seem to have the kind of love to offer Him that is due Him? I asked Him to help me love Him with all my heart and with all my soul and with all my might. This started a conversation with God which lasted many hours.”
I went on to write: “As I talked to God…something started to change in me. I felt the presence of God resting on me and my recitation of His Goodness became sing-song poetry. I felt my love for God grow and become deeper, it was like God enlarged my heart and gave me the ability to love Him as He deserves to be loved. I asked God to help me love Him and He did.”…
“This was many months ago and my love for God has continued to grow. It has become what I can only describe as a spousal love. I Need Him. I can’t wait to be in His Presence. I pour my love out to Him. I lavish love on Him. I woo Him and worship Him with an unashamed need. I love Him deeply, deeply, deeply… and He loves me.”
God has begun a great work and his army is rising up. Dry bones are taking on sinews and are gaining strength. They are breathing for God has breathed into them the breath of life in His Holy Ghost. They are moving as one body and will do God’s Will. They have sought God’s face and listen for His Voice. They have separated themselves from mindless entertainment and have filled their time with seeking after Him. They are clothed with righteousness and hunger for more knowledge of deep things. They refuse to settle for the status quo, but desire to dig deeper into God’s Word. They will speak boldly and be fearless in prayer. They will strengthen themselves and like a strong man runs to the battle, so they will run into warfare and pray as tried and hardened soldiers. They will come against principalities and spirits of wickedness. They will break down the walls of the enemy and release captives from cruel masters of sin. They will stir many to rise up with them in this final battle against the powers of darkness. They will inspire others to rise up as warriors. This army will make a way for the harvesting angels. They will work alongside the warfare angels to fight back darkness so that many can be saved. It is time for a great harvest, but warfare angels must be dispatched first.
The shofar must be sounded for warfare must begin. RISE UP OH ARMY OF GOD! Prepare yourselves with prayer and fasting! The time for status quo is ended. Shake yourselves like mighty men and run to the battle!
1 Thou therefore, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2 And the things that thou hast heard of me among many witnesses, the same commit thou to faithful men, who shall be able to teach others also. 3 Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. 4 No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier. 5 And if a man also strive for masteries, yet is he not crowned, except he strive lawfully. 6 The husbandman that laboureth must be first partaker of the fruits. 7 Consider what I say; and the Lord give thee understanding in all things. 2 Timothy 2:1-7